I Let Myself Sink Into You

I let myself sink into you,

Taking deep dips,

Not letting myself float.

You kept the rhythm of ocean

Calm and said the waves

To come another day.

I got lost in the tranquility of

your arms,

Seeking an abode for eternity,

Reaching out in bliss.

Maybe If I could live here forever,

I would dance at a different pace,

guided by the warmth of your heart.

I see no lines seperating us,

Shutting down the little fragments of overthinking,

I place you close to my bosom,

Never to let you go.

Making all the falsities disappear,

I'm riveted by the hold of your hands,

the sheer joy on your face

At the movement of my eyelashes,

Making me fall all over again.

You asked me if you could join in my agony,

If you could make me think of

Things of joy,

Checking my pulse and it's

dramas,

You dived deep into me,

Untangling the mysterious cords,

that encircled me.

Breaking the rules and tripping over

the cords,

You moved fearlessly and hopefully,

Creating a new space,

For the waves to move peacefully,

Guided by the light that you hold

Again I let myself sink into you.

A. C

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THE SILENT CRY

Darkness ...at its zenith Silence.. at the sound 's lowest decibel.. I wrapped myself up into the blanket tears rolled down my cheeks.. I cried.. I cried in the dark silence silently.. No voice of my cry.. I bite my hands.. I cried silent loudly.. I cried for the dreams unfulfilled I cried thinking of my unpredicted future.. I cried thinking of my unknown death.. I cried thinking of my inabilities I cried thinking of the gifts not given to me I cried thinking of my people.. And I complained God Almighty for the miseries given to me.. ... I wiped off my tears.. I smiled. Perfect... Nothing is better than this silent loud cry..!! A.C

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