When You See Me Again

When you see me again,

Let us talk about the things we enjoyed.

Like the movie we watched in

which the man never found true love,

But where the woman cried a lot

Over her loneliness,

And you told she resembles me,

her pale features were like mine,

Adding beauty to my smile.

And this being the only thing

That we enjoyed,

I may not know what to talk about next.

Just as you left in the middle of our picnic last month,

I kept staring at the untouched sandwich that I made for you,

And when I made peace with your plans,

You kept changing my playlist,

telling me I should be mature.

You brought things that my cat found amusing,

And told me to get rid of her,

But instead, I burnt your things,

Amusing her again.

You hated my makeup and told me I

Looked lovely without it,

So I darkened my Lip shade,

Cropped and colored my hair.

You told me to eat more because

I'm too skinny for your features,

So the next day,

I told you to stop eating to look like me.

And yesterday, when you told me,

I can't write and my poems

and books are stupid,

You started to look like a stranger

with your pompous talks

And ugly features.

Since only a movie is something that ties us together,

I have already forgotten it.

I'm wishing you luck,

not to trip and fall again on your own

Narcissism,

To end up like the man in the movie.

A. C

Comments

THE SILENT CRY

Darkness ...at its zenith Silence.. at the sound 's lowest decibel.. I wrapped myself up into the blanket tears rolled down my cheeks.. I cried.. I cried in the dark silence silently.. No voice of my cry.. I bite my hands.. I cried silent loudly.. I cried for the dreams unfulfilled I cried thinking of my unpredicted future.. I cried thinking of my unknown death.. I cried thinking of my inabilities I cried thinking of the gifts not given to me I cried thinking of my people.. And I complained God Almighty for the miseries given to me.. ... I wiped off my tears.. I smiled. Perfect... Nothing is better than this silent loud cry..!! A.C

Kaathal - The Core Breaker of 2023

Kaathal - The Core is one of the movies of 2023 that left an ache in my heart. It's the kind of movie where you just sit and stare at the wall for hours after you finish it. I keep thinking about the pain of Mathew, Omana, Thankan and Chachan and it is something that continues to haunt me. Mathew’s pain is something that has become part of him by living the prime of his life pretending to be an integral part of a heteronormative society. His calm and meek personality is like a dormant volcano that is likely to erupt anytime. When he confronts his pain with Chachan and Omana, we see him peeling off his outer layer of crust and showing us his core. The core, that has carried deep wounds of fear and shame of coming out and confronting his fears, all this while. I don’t think I have seen a more compassionate and kind woman as Omana in recent movies. Despite being in a marriage that doesn’t fulfill her needs, she stays in it for years for the sake of Mathew. And when the right ...

Little Poem

My procrastination ends here, While the urge to write chokes my throat, My hands get paralysed as in a trance, I find excuses to write a little poem, I make up a lonely man, a distressed woman, a lovers’ quarrel, an unrequited love, But they are reluctant to play the part, Maybe i should give them a raise, Or throw a party at midnight, Maybe a few drinks might work, Only if they don’t puke. I can expect a little vandalism, Some damage to the property and a mini scandal, Possibly out of rage. But at the end when I bring my weapons, Sometimes they get scared and back off, Some may never come back, Others find it funny and mock at me, And opportunists, seeing my desperation, Attacks me with manipulation. And all these while, my three panic attacks talk to me in a different language, I try to write a little poem With a racing heart and flowing eyes, I write my little poem, tortured and broken, I end my little poem, Like a mighty warrior, Who had a pyrrhic victory.

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